nude self portrait, crouching
there is a white page and a man sits within its bounds,
a knee pressed to the right edge
a hand that would be pushing left
if it weren’t invisible.
being inside brackets changes the difference between pushing and holding.
the invisible hand never had any fingers
the invisible hand was never there
but its loss is everywhere
suckling the definition of those toes.
seeing what’s there is sometimes too hard when you know
the body has leaks
opening at the wrist like an oboe, lipless and mute,
therefore no longer quite an object
but more like two branches diverging.
another sky fills the body like a drowned glass
the top of the head is also full of holes
but the flicked impossibility of hair is a distraction.
everyday I renew a contentedness to not really know where the bone starts.
not knowing is sometimes like bathing,
not moving enough to be swimming,
just permitting the water
to fill where it might
and holding a bubble loosely in your mouth.
but this is not floating
this is crouching
and the throb of realising
the invisible hand is the hand that’s been drawing
and everything that’s happened has been watched,
what started with the eye of a toe,
limbs put on like seatbelts
and no support but the possibility of nothing at all
ekphrasis, wikipedia
one tries to relate to another more directly , by name to call , tries to , out , in doing so , to speak , (to not always be able) . for example , the word comes in one medium , virtually a life of its own , brilliant , subject , illuminative , certainly . given the right circumstances , any art may describe any other – art – yet it is the spirit we are concerned about . the distorted faces in a crowd . all examples

Susanna Galbraith
Susanna Galbraith is from Belfast. Her poems have featured in publications including Banshee, Washing Windows Too, Cyphers, Anthropocene, The Tangerine, The York Literary Review, The Lonely Crowd, The Pickled Body, the HU, and numerous others. She won the Red Line Poetry Competition 2021. She is also the project editor of Abridged. @susannaalice
‘nude self portrait, crouching’ was first published in Channel Magazine Issue 7 channelmag.org.
